Sad isn't it? How no matter what you do or say to me . When you come running back . When you need me again . I'll be here . Right here waiting for you, I'll take you back . No questions asked. Have you ever hated somebody so much that you wish they would just leave and never come back but yet, loved them so much, you knew youd die if they did?*sigh. I'm smiling . but I really dont mean it. I miss how we used to be . I miss how it was so real . I'm sick of feeling like something's missing . Time and time again, I forgave you. I've forgiven you for things that I swore to myself I'd never forgive someone for . And there you are , still hurting me , and I still forgave you . I'm mad at myself . I'm mad for always being nice, always apologizing for things I didn't do, for getting attached, for making you my life, depending on you, wasting my time on you, thinking about you , forgiving you , and most of all, for not hating you which I know I should .. but I can't . I hate the way I could never hate you . Difficult or easy, pleasant or bitter, you are the same you; I cannot live, with or without you . It seems to me that the harder I try the harder I fall . What can i do ? Tell me .

*sorry for being emotional .