Life's changed . Your life didnt change yet ? Well I can say my life did . No one have ever tell me that seperation is gonna be this hard . No one have ever tell me that missing someone can be this bad . This is a lot times worse than the one I've faced in 2oo8 . You know , getting seperated from your chilhood friends , entering sekolah menengah which means 'different stage of age and maturity' . I made it through anyway . I survived because I've gained new friends .
Do I smile sincerely a lot this year ? No . Do I feel happy a lot this year ? No . Do I feel lonely ? Yes . Do I feel helpless ? Yes . Do I feel empty ? Yes . That's just the word that I've been searching for , EMPTY . My life is empty . Dull . Nill . Blank , as blank as a paper . I don't have a clue of what I should be doing to make things better . Everyone is a stranger to me . I am an alien to them . So how do we get along ? Because my two monkeys ( the two that can really understand my weird behaviour ) have drifed away , the were gone . They left me for their freaking-tak-awesome asrama . I don't even know how to make friends anymore . I don't know how to trust anyone else . I don't know how to care for anyone else . Im obsessed with my two bestfriends and I just can't get over them , but they left :) How great .
Awesome guys , awesome .
Selfish am I ? No . I'm not .
I'm just lonely , that's all .
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