Not anymore

No longer a kid who plays a role of being the second best to you . No longer will I play the part of being a bestfriend to a perfect sweet talker like you . No longer will I be afffected by your words . All this while , my life , of course , quite , ermm , revolved around you , and I stick with you errr almost .. all the time . Your decision affects my life . Things that came out of your mouth stays forever in my mind . Every little thing that you've done for me , I appreciate it so much as though you've arranged the stars in the sky for me . Every single ccompliments you gave me , it feels as though I get the chance to take part in American Next Top Model . Kow what I mean ? ...

You said ..
' Heyyy rambut dah panjang kan '
' Eh asal pakai klip tak comel '
' Nampak kurus doh ' (LOL)
' Bulu mata kau lentik kan sebenarnya , baru hari ni aku nampak , selama ni tak terurus'
' Dah tinggi sikit , sikit je '

And ..
' Sumpah aku sayang kau '
' Kaulah bestdriend aku paling best '
' Thanks Dania I love you '
' Kau banyak tolong aku '

I let my hair grow longer . I stopped wearing hairclips . LOL I do nothing to be even more kurus . Eyelashes ? I make sure they're well taken care of . Tinggi ? I started to wear shoes with higher platform whenever we go out . Its not that Im trying to be someone else , Im still me , the loud and cheerful and bangang Dania . But it seems like , I do care about your opinion you knowww ? It matters to me .

But now all of those things have started to fade .. slowly but surely . The memories will stay forever in my head , but I think I wanna let you go , peacefully .

I wanna cut my hair .
I will wear hairclips .
I will get kurus-er if that makes sense ..
I will get taller and that doesnt makes sense .. really .
I will straighten my eyelashes .
Just , anything , I'll do anything againts your opinion .

Rebel betul aku haha . I don't knoww .

Im cutting my hair off , Im gonna get a haircut .
It resembles my ... determination to be a stronger person :p
And ... it shows that I ... have .. errr ... started ... not to care .. about .. err your opinion ? And I've stopped caring about you ?

Lol .. I 've never stopped caring . I've just stopped showing that I care . Truth is , I always care , always will . There's no way I'm going to stop But what should I do when you've stopped caring about me so easily ? What should I do ? It'd seem foolish enough to .. continue .. posting stuffs on your FB wall . And .. sending you text massages . Or even call you . It will become so obvious that I .. I am the only one who cares . Its pathetic , really .

But , I'm a strong young lady . You'll see . I aint gettin any weaker , Im gettin stronger faster cuter fairer LOLLL . You'll see . Im about to change . First thing , gonna cut my hair .