The Verge Of

Of Breaking Dawn . Eh salah . Tu Twilight Saga lololol . I mean .. I'm on the verge of breaking down . Had so much fun yesterday but now it's going to be just the same like any other normal days . Can't have too much of a good thing can we . Hazwan and Anis are going back to their hostels . Like duh where else would they be . It's hard to let them go once again because .. I've been acting so strong lately , so strong that I don't even care if they choose not to come back home . But as I said , it was all an act . Truth is , I want to be with them everyday . Every friggin day of my life . After 7 months , I've plucked some courage to get a move in my life and open up to people around me . I've washed my brain to let them go peacefully and .. I've ignored all that sad feelings I get whenever I remember bout em . Because I have to be strong . but I'm not . I'm so upset right now . My whole system is down .. It sucks you know , when everything is going fine then it all crashes again . The worst part is , I really don't want to try and put it all back again together .. but I have to .

Good news is , Hazwan Halmi is coming back . Coming back like really coming back . He's getting into Nine again . He'll become a Niners again . ( Nine refers to my school SMK Section 9 , Niners refer to the students ) . So we can start our study group session again can't we ? I'm looking forward to that day that I'll be seeing Hazwan with Nine uniform again . I'l be waiting for that day . And Anis , I'll be waiting to that day when we finish our SPM and only then we can spend our time together as much as we want kay , Insya Allah .

wait·ing The action of staying where one is or delaying action until a particular time or until something else happens