Ummi .

You're too busy growing up . You're too busy with your friends . You're too busy keeping up with the world . You're too busy GROWING UP . You forget that your parents are growing old too . I'm sorry but I'm crying right now . Entah lah , kesedaran Sivik apa entah masuk tiba-tiba at this late hour , while I'm scrolling through my Twitter timeline , Tumblr dashboard , Facebook home . My mum called me ' Ata , Percy Jackson dekat HBO ' from downstairs . I said ' Oh , dah banyak kali tengok Hehe' . And mummy said ' Oh okaay' and she continued watching the TV as I went into my room, continue with the internet surfing . I don't know why but I regret it that I didnt come down and watched Percy Jackson with Mummy . I really regret it . I really dooo . All I want to do right now is , to break through my mum's bedroom door and sleep in between Ayah and Mummy , and hug them both . How could I not watch Percy frigging Jackson with my mum ? WHY ? I mean .. she knows I love Percy Jackson and I said that I'VE WATCHED THE MOVIE QUITE LOTS OF TIMES ? Maybe you won't understand this but , I think I should have go downstairs and watch the movie with her . You know , its one of those times when you realize you're being too busy with something else and took your parents for granted . I mean , I didnt take them for granted but .. YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN . I really want to hug mummy now :'( I wanna sleep in her lap . I want to throw this laptop away . But I cant since its a gift from Ayah and I'll regret it later LOLOL . Seriously , do you understand what am I feeling right now ? Its like IM TOO BUSY with my own little world . Its like , I dont know how to explain this but I want my mum now . But she's sleeping so yeah . And remembering back all those times she looked after me , and she took care of me when I'm sick , how she didnt get enough sleep when I caught fever , how she just .. how she loved me after all these times , since day 1 . How she loved me when I'm being stubborn , how she loved me when I'm being demanding , how she loved me when i'm angry , how she loved me when I'm sad , how she loved me when I'm being stupid , how she loved me after all the things I've put her through . Most importantly , how she gave all her love after Daddy passed away . You'll never be able to understand this love we share . After Daddy passed away , Mumy became my everything . She's everything in every single thing that I've done . She's the WHY I did something . She's the WHO behind my every success . She's the everything in my victories and failures . She's the reason why I'm strong . Mummy is my own kind of superhero , and by saying superhero , i mean the real superhero . She did everything for us . And most importantly , she told us that eveything's gonna be alright , even when Daddy's not here anymore . My 5A's in UPSR is for Mummy . My 8A's in PMR is for Mummy . And I remember that look on Mummy's face when I got the 'Tokoh Akademik' award back in 2007 , when I was 12 . The tears and the smile , I wont forget that . Thats the happiest day of my life . It make it all worthwile . Mummy is .. I DONT KNOW I JUST LOVE HER . I never cried in front of her . I've learned not to cry in front of her since .. Daddy got aadmitted in the hospital after the accident . When we were in front of the ICU doors , I cried so hard that my voice wont come out . You should've looked at the expression that my mum wear when she looked at me crying so hard . I .. cant take that anymore . I cant see my mum being all sad and I promised not to cry in front of her . And I was 11 . I've gained maturity before the right time . Experience do that to you sometimes . And to see your mum ccrying everyday in front of you , It makes you kinda go strong . So , this bond between me and my mum is so strong . She's the only one I've got in this world . Go ahead , call me 'anak manja' and all . My mum is everything for me .

I just , wanna hug her now . I wanna sleep in her lap so badlyy riight now .

Ya Allah , lindungi ibu ku Ya Allah . Pelihara dia Ya Allah . Sayangi dia sepertimana dia menyayangi aku .