battlewhatfield.blogspot.com .

That's vas happnin .
Peace out :)
-Dania

Farewell

Do they make songs about being 18 ? They don't ? Oh .

Do they write songs about leaving school and being afraid of getting out of your comfort zone that is school ?

Do they make songs about which course you gotta choose when in college ?

Do they make tutorials on how to survive real life ...

Idk . I'm unofficially eighteen now .

Like I don't go to school on the 2nd of January 2013 wow . Feels weird , not buying new school uniforms and bag and stationaries and shoes . Wow ? I sent my brother off to school instead of going to school together . Wow ? I tweeted 'welcome back to school kids' instead of  'urgh I have school tomorrow' . Wow ? I heard my mum saying 'tidur awal esok sekolah' and I actually don't have to sleep early coz I don't go to school anymore

Yknow how u get to see your bestfriends everyday at school ? Set up something together while in school . Talk and laugh and cry and stuffs . Be there for each other . Listen to them . Be inspired . Be inspiring .

Yknow how u get to see those same faces everyday ? I miss those faces .

And do yknow my blog's url ? yeah , daniakesengalan.blogpot.com  . I'm about to make a new blog . I made this blog when I was a form 2 student . 'kesengalan' itself potrays immaturity and childish behaviour OMG WHYY SO SERIOUS THOUGHHH ? RAISE YOUR GLASS BEBEH RAISE YOUR GLASS . So what was I saying ... aha .. new blog . I am still a kid , but I do wish to become a better kid lol forget it . So , its not like I wanna jump straight into becoming an adult , but , idk this blog is like , childish thoughts of a teenager auuuuuu if you get what I mean . I wanna start new , not becoming like a completely new person though , more to .. becoming a .. urmm .. better and more mature young adult ? Yeah something like that .

Someday I'll reread the posts and be entertained , learn my lessons and never forget who I am .
So lets just wrap this highschool diary of mine and say hello to a different life . A not so sengal life , I guess ? :p
Goodbye , daniakesengalan.blogspot.com

Post Mortem

Assalalamualaikum .

Okay cam biasa lama tak update blog blablabla banyak dust hachoom & everything . Done .

Hello everyone ! How's life ? Hahaha Happy New Year eventhough its the fifth of January already . Well daripada wish on the sixth better la the fifth rifht ~ at least awal sehari lol I'm not making any sense .

So Dania , how's your life after SPM ? Lol are you asking me how post-SPM life is ? Oh don't bother , my life is both extreme boredom and extreme dullness mixed all together , the product youre gonna get is my life , which is a boring and dull life lol . I kinda expected my post SPM life to be all sweet and filled with rainbows and stuffs . But no . Post SPM life is about being hungry all the time and not having anything to do but to eat lol .

You know how you tend to be extremely rajin to update your blog lah Twitter lah , take pictures for Instagram and everything when you have something else to do kan ( for instance studying coughs coughs coughs coughs), lol now macam dah tak kisah je weh macam 'pergh bosan aku hadap TL Twitter ni ewww' . I have tons and tons and tons and tons of unread books waiting to be finished on my shelves . Before SPM I always looked at them and said '' Im sorry darlings I didnt mean to betray you but SPM needs my attention more than you do , I promise Im gonna read all of you sweethearts , until me and SPM break up please wait patiently for The Return of Dania The Bookworm , I promise you this baby you and I we'll get back together I'll read you everyday baby wait for me till then xoxoxoxoxo'' . I'm mad for books don't you know that . I was longing for books love so bad during my pre SPM life lol but I can't touch any of the books coz once I started to read , I'll finish the book in one day and thats not good right coz at that time I was supposed to like , touch Biology book and finish it in one day lol . But now , I kept rereading Percy Jackson & Harry Potter coz I miss them so baddddd . I tend to forget that I have tons and tons and tons and tons of unread books on my shelves and I always scream YOLO in front of my unread books and I am so biased I have extreme favouritism for Harry Potter and Percy Jackson idk man someone get me a boyfriend please . lol .


Do you now have any idea of how my post SPM is like ? Its dull and boring . Everyday is the same lol . But the best part of my current life is , it's filled with extreme  family bonding time :) And , it's filled with Korean dramas & varieties . It's filled with painting time . It''s filled with idk , I can do whatever I want coz I have all the time in the world and I don't have to rush or anything .

Maybe post SPM life isnt bad at all .

Idk man my wiFi is like so freakin fast right now and I'm like OH EM GEE MY SPEEDY WIFI I HAVENT MET YOU FOR SO LONG WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN BABY .

The thing is , I just moved to a new house and this house is located in like a super duper new housing area and yeah . Back in my old house , the wiFi connection was superb everything loaded in just a blink of an eye ( hiperbola gila ) but you get the idea . Its been about 2 months maybe since I moved into this house and I've been suffering because of the terrible wiFi connection . Do you feel me ? Tsk .

But right now , like at this very particular moment , the connection is good and fast and smooth and omg yay , and I'm taking this advantage to be a stalker . I will go now . Hahaha .

'Heiii heiii heiiii' greeted the Purple guy . He smiled and sat next to me , just like any other normal day in school .

'Kau khusyuk sangat belajar pahal lek ah exam berzaman lagi' he said with a 'youre-such-a-nerd-Dania' look in his eyes .

'Ah aku nerd pun aku jugak bestfriend kau kan . Dah baca buku senyap-senyap kalau taknak dengar aku bebel  ' and with that , I began to focus back on the book that I was reading and he , I noticed , was searching for something in his bag . 'Haaaa cari buku ah tu . Good now he's studying too , banzai brother! ' I said to myself , and the reading went on and on and on until ..

Someone tapped my shoulder . 'Woi kau asal main cuit-cuit bahu ish' I gave him such dirty looks because .. well .. a girl just wanted to study for her big examination so why can't you just leave her alone ..

'Takde masa aku nak main cuit-cuit bahu dengan kau , perasan , baca lah buku kau tu balik ' he returned the dirty looks and began to , again , search for something in his bag .

'Amende kau cari sebenarnya dari tadi seluk-seluk beg , buku tak keluar-keluar jugak' I nagged and nagged and nagged .

' Ish mak nenek baca je lah buku kau tu , aku cubit karang , baca bukuuuuu tuuuuu cepaaat takyah pandang kiri kanan lah , kau syok sangat pandang muka aku asal ' it was his turn to nag this time . So I read and read and read until reading became too mainstream (LOL) and once I've decided to stop reading , I looked at him .

'Apa kau cari tadi dalam beg ? Kau dah jumpa ? Kau bawak hazelnut chocolate untuk aku eh mana weh mana manaa manaaaaaa ' oh well , a child will always be a child .

'Tadi baca buku serious macam mak cik mana , sekarang mintak coklat macam budak kecik , hish Dania , Dania ' he looked at me and laughed .

'Tak kisah ah . So mana hazelnut chocolate aku ?'

'Aku bukan supplier kau okay ' he said , not looking at me this time .

'Fine ahhhhhh dah ada girlfriend nak bagi aku coklat pun susah sekarang fine weh fine aku ingat ' well he used to buy me a lot of chocolates though .. so why stopppp ?

'Ah kau, girlfriend tak habis-habis ,menyampah aku dengar . Alasan nak merajuk je en , girlfriend girlfriend girlfriend . Aku ada girlfriend betul-betul karang baru kau tau . Merajuk ah tiap-tiap hari , aku pujuk girlfriend aku je . Gigit jari kau tiap-tiap hari aku tak layan kau , mana ah kau nak cari kawan baik macam aku en . Nak sangat en aku ada girlfriend , kan , kan ' he stared at me .

'Aa..aku mintak coklat je , janganlah marah .'  WHY SO SENSITIVE ABOUT GIRLFRIEND THOUGHHHHH ? ( Lalu aku pun tersentap dan merentap dan terus diam dua ribu bahasa ) .

The recess bell rang .
I got up quickly because I wanted to get out of the class as soon as possible .
I was seriously annoyed/sentap/bengang .
Seriously , I WAS JUST ASKING FOR A BAR OF HAZELNUT CHOCOLATE FOR CRYING OUT LOUD .

When I was about to reach the door , the Purple guy said
'Maybe ada chocolate bar dalam beg aku . Cari lah . Aku nak keluar pergi kantin ' he got up from his seat , walked pass me and went out through the door .

'Takpe aku beli sendiri nanti bye' of course I refused. Duhh .

'Heyy budak kecik , pergi dekat beg aku cari coklat okay , dah jumpa coklat makan ' err okay Dad ~

'Siapa budak kecik . Kau tu lahir lambat daripada aku sedar diri sikit dik ' I didn't want to lose .

'Dania , cari je cari coklat kat beg aku tadi kau nak sangat kan .Okay ? :) '

'Tadi taknak bagi . Sekarang paksa ambik .' URGHH I SO DON'T GET YOU . I was slapping him virtually in my mind at that point . Anyway , I went  to his seat and took his bag . I began searching for the chocolate .

'Hmm kalau takde dalam beg aku , maybe dekat dalam beg kau . Ciao ' and he walked away .

Er , excuse me , but , I didnt bring any chocolate and that was why I had to ask for one from you ..

There was nothing to be found in his bag except for books and a pencil case .
'So do I search in my bag now ? But there's no chocolate in there urgh that guy's driving me crazy' 

I unzipped my bag , and to my surprise , there was a hazelnut chocolate bar and a stuffed Garfield . Whuuuut ? Stuffed Garfield ? Stuffed Garfield ? Aegyoooo .

The Purple Guy , always a tone of surprise .
A puzzle that can never be solved ,
but interesting enough and worth a try .

Dorabojimalgo tteonagara
Tto nareul chatjimalgo saragara
Neoreul saranghaetgie huhoeeopgie
Johatdeon gieongman gajyeogara
Geureokjeoreok chamabolmanhae
Geureokjeoreok gyeondyeonaelmanhae
Neon geureolsurok haengbokhaeyadwae
Haru haru mudyeojyeogane

Narul itgoso saragajwo .

Han Guk

Siapa tak tengok drama Korea , urm , tolong panggil diri sendiri noob . Ahaks ahaks . I started to watch Korean dramas back in 2006 , around the time Princess Hour was aired in Malaysia , I was 11 at that time .

Princess Hour is forever #1 in my heart .

Apart from Princess Hour , another favourite drama of mine is Sassy Girl Chun Hyang . Damn it I really , really miss that drama . I miss Chun Hyang and Lee Mong Ryong

Drama-drama gemilang di atas memang macam , ish , memang tahap gila babeng ah concentrate tengok masa tu . Ye ah , follow semua episode tiap-tiap malam dekat TV . Balik sekolah mandi solat belajar rajin2 siapkan homework pastu terus conquer TV sebab nak tengok Korea , siap berangan malam tu esok punya episode dia nak cerita pasal apa lol ~ . Sekarang ni nak tengok kat TV memang sesungguhnya tidak lah kan , tidak dan tidak dan tidak lagi . Haruslah aku mengambil kesempatan menggunakan kemajuan teknologi yang ada dan feeling sorang-sorang sampai bergenang dengan lautan air mata dalam bilik tengok cerita Korea , ye dok lol .

Start from zaman B.O.F , around 2009 , zaman kepantasan internet dah boleh diterima oleh masyarakat umum, aku pun mesti lah start menggunakan kebebasan ber-internet ini untuk menonton drama-drama gemilang ini Hahahahaha .

From Princess Hour & Sassy Girl Chun Hyang to Boys Over Flower, and a lot of other dramas , from a 10 years old girl to a 17 years old highschool senior , I've never get bored of Korean dramas .

But I've never been a K-Pop fan before , never . I mean , I did listen to Korean songs but .. only the sad and heartbreaking ones though .. coz I was that emotional y'know ..

Well this one is a Japanese song but yeah , its from TVXQ/DBSK .

Also a Japanese song , from Big Bang . This song .. oh .. my .. god . Somehow, it sends shivers down my spine every single time I'm listening to it .

And this .. Even If I Die I Cant Let You Go by 2am . ITS SO FREAKIN SAD LIKE HOW CAN YOU NOT LIKE THIS SONG AND FEEL SORRY FOR THOSE OPPAS .

But after watching thousands episodes of Running Man , I fell in love with Korea all over again ,

This time , K-Pop was included .

I have this sick obsession towards Big Bang and yes , its like fangirling over One Direction all over again .

Its tiring lol .

Come on ah, aku cam dah terbiasa en di brain-washed kan dengan pepatah 'apa barang dengar lagu Melayu sila lah dengar lagu-lagu Hollywood sekian terima kasih' . So sewaktu usia muda aku haruslah aku isi dengan meminati Jonas Brothers dan band-band seangkatan dengannya pada zaman itu . Dan haruslah bagiku pada waktu itu memandang oppa-oppa Korea ( sadly , termasuk Big Bang ) dengan sebelah mata je , seperti 'KENAPA KAU PAKAI PELIK SANGAT' dan 'APA KAU NYANYI AKU TAK FAHAM' . Persoalan seperti 'asal kau selalu bajet-bajet rapping bahasa Inggeris ?' , 'cuba bukak mata besar-besar tak boleh ke haaaaaaaaaaaah' dan 'asal kau selalu dye warna kau dengan warna yang .. urghh ewww tolong dapatkan style coordinator' selalu muncul di benak fikiranku .

Tapi sekarang ..

'PERGH SEMUA BENDA GD PAKAI SEMUA COOL GILA , SELUAR KOYAK-KOYAK TAK MAMPU BELI BARU PUN DIA PAKAI CAM ISH COOL GILA SARANGHAEEE GD OPPA' 'TOLONG AH JANGAN STOP NYANYI DAESUNG , I CANT STOP LISTENING TO YOUR ANGELIC VOICE , KAJIMAAAA~' 'Fuyoooooooh oppa ni reti rap Bahasa Inggeris weh perghhhhhhh terer gilaaaaa fuyoooh mesti lahir dekat America' 'Daesung please dont do anything to your eyes to change em , theyre perfect just the way they are yknow , MEGA SARANGHAE DAE <3 ' 'Rambut T.O.P colour hijau & biru cool gila okay memang cool gila tahap Himalaya urghhhhhhhhhhh cool gilaaaaaaaaaaaaa' 'SIAPA KISAH AKU FAHAM KE TAK LAGU NI , BOLEH GOOGLE ENGLISH TRANSLATION KOT '

And never-ending talks about Korea , Korea and Korea at school with em The Windows 95's (lol)

Even in phone calls with Aisya ..

Kesian kawan-kawan aku tu , from One Direction dah tukar Bigbang ,

kena dengar aku fangirl hari-hari sobs Hahaa

I can't wait to learn Hangul once SPM is over :)

Talking To The Moon

Kadang-kadang bila terfikir masa zaman sekolah rendah , aku sayu , sebak .

(Bukan kadang-kadang , selalu gila sebenarnya bahahaha)

Aku betul-betul rindu dekat Amym & Zati .

Betul-betul , betul-betul rindu .

Rindu tahap .. extreme gila .

Aku kan noob takde boyfriend so mestilah rindu dekat bestfriend je :3

Cik Jiran , Hanisah . Hanisah dulu cintan dengan Hafizuddin HAHAHAHA omg rindu gila nak mati Darjah 3 .

Kembar siam Amym , Haiqal . Ahh , rindu .

Masuk sekolah menengah baru nak lembut-lembut jiwang-jiwang sikit LOOOOL .

Rindu gila Yadh , Noni , Amal , Maya , Jamal , Harith blablabla and semua lah yang dekat Bestari dulu :') Tak lupa jugak kawan gaduh paling awesome , Azfar Hamdii Hahahahaha .

Kalau lah Shah Alam-Tanjung Karang tu macam Shah Alam-Subang Jaya , terdaya lah jugak aku nak jumpa diorang every weekend .

Tak pun kalau ada KTM from Shah Alam to Tanjung , akan ku gagahi jugak lah menunggangi KTM tersebut walaupun semua orang tau aku paling mencik ( benci ) menunggangi KTM dan train , LRT dan sebagainya , HAHAHAHAHA MENUNGGANG LOOL .

Kalau lah naik taxi from Shah Alam to Tanjung RM 50 je , termampu lah lagi aku nak bayar .

Apa kan daya , tsk , aku tak mampu nak bayar duit taxi beratus ratus hinggit dan aku juga tidak mampu untuk berjalan kaki mahupun berenang mahupun mendayung sampan untuk sampai ke Tanjung Karang .

Alamak Dania , bas kan ada . Sorry lah awak kita tak reti naik bas , kita tak tipu :'(

Macam dah 80 kali aku suruh Eddy ajar aku naik bas , daripada form 3 , tapi tak jalan jugak Hahahahaha .

Kadang-kadang aku rasa macam desperate gila nak balik Tanjung , macam URGHHH KENAPA AKU TAK BOLEH BALIK TANJUNG KENAPA URGHHH . *Everyday I wear my heart on my sleeve tsk*

Ada jugak terfikir macam 'Patutnya offer SAMTK masuk asrama masa masuk form 1 dulu aku terima , so masa pindah Shah Alam aku takpayah ikut , duduk dekat Tanjung diam-diam' LOL MACAM AKU BOLEH SURVIVE JE DUDUK DEKAT ASRAMA .

Aku rindu korang , tapi aku pun tak boleh buat apa-apa . Nanti aku dah ambik license , tiap-tiap hari aku drive pergi Tanjung jumpa korang Hahaha ( kalau korang nak jumpa aku lah lol ) . Aku rindu sangat dekat korang , rindu sangat sangat sangat sangaaat . Korang jangan lupa aku taaaau *emo japs* Hehe . Ampunkan semua dosa aku dekat korang , halalkan makan minum aku . Selamat Hari Raya kawan .

I didnt have the most grand birthday celebration like some people might have .

13th August 2012 , it was Monday and I didnt go to school because we've just finished moving out our stuffs from our old house into a new one the day before . DO YOU KNOW HOW TIRING MOVING TO A NEW HOUSE IS ? GAAAAAH .

It was my first night sleeping in my new bedroom .

Around 7 oclock , when I was still sleeping , Ayah came into my room and kissed my forehead

'Happy birthday girl , I'll let you off for today , you dont have to go to school , have some rest birthday gal , I'm leaving for office now , love ya ' and I was like 'umm .. okay .. ummm *grunts* .. aaaa .. thanks Ayah love you too' with my annoying sleepy voice and went straight back to sleep Hahahahaha .

A few minutes after that , Mummy went into my room and kissed my forehead

'Ata , happy 17th birthday . We'll celebrate tonight okay ? Mummy pergi office dulu , fikir2 lah nak hadiah apa hehehe byeeee' and she kissed my cheeks before leaving my room . 'okay Mummy.. uuuuu .. aaaaaa .. thanks .. huargh ..I love you' and I went back to sleep Hahahahahaha .

When I woke up , Eika came into my room , ' Happy birthday Tashya' and she ruffled my hair . 'Mesti penat nak cakap thanks dekat orang yang wish Happy Birthday dekat FB kan hahahaha' .

And then, Eija came 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAASHYAAAAAAAAA . Eija pecahkan jerawat Eija hmm sakit' Hahahahahahahahahahahahaha . We hang out in my bedroom , talking about the most random things and stuffs , Eija curled our hair and heck yes , I love sister bonding time .

When I went downstairs , Danny and Afiq went all like ' HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAK LONG , HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAK TASHYA , HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAH TUA HAHAHAHA HAPPY BIRTHDAY' lol those smelly brothers of mine . Danny was like ' Hmmm Danny patutnya beli Birthday card dekat sekolah hari ni untuk Kak Long , tapi tak pergi sekolah kan hari ni , hurm , hurm , hurm' awwww boy, how sweet of you .

When Ayah and Mummy went home , we had iftar and went to Sunway for a lil bit of Raya shopping . I didnt even blow candles on any cake for my birthday , but the highlight of my day was ,

when we ate KFC excitedly on our new dining table for the first time ( coz we didnt eat much during iftar hahahhaha weh lapar gila seeriuz ) , the clock showed 11:59 PM , and they sang me a Happy Birthday song with warming smiles on their faces .

What else could be better than having your super duper loving family around ya on your birthday ? :) Nothing can beat that .

I'm sorry but having a lot of followers on social networks .. it doesnt really resemble anything to me . Popularity ? Attention ? Ya think you're always right just because you have a lot of followers ? Ya tryna prove that you're popular among your circle of fans ? Looks cheap and desperate to me . Of course you can't help it that people like you so much , of course you can't help it that youre popular . But , to think that you've changed because of that number of followers you have, , to think that you're super mega popular because you have a lot of followers saying stuffs like 'Oh I met you just now you look good hehe' 'Sombong gila tak tegur pun, orang feymes kan' oh please , drop it .

Why are you becoming another person just because the number of followers you have ?

You're trying too hard to look cool and stuffs .

I'm not jealous, I just feel sorry for you.

Let me tell you a secret ,

A 'you' that I knew back then was a thousand times cool-er than than a 'you' who is now wearing a thick layer of fakeness-mask on his face everytime he tweets/updates a status .

Get a grip .

Some people wish they can capture the world through their blind eyes,

to be watching the sky freely as the sun rises until it sets,

to be fascinated by the darkest shades of grey to the brightest shades of red,

to be catching a glimpse of what the world he's living in really looks like

Some people wish they can hear the melodies of life through their deaf ears,

wishing to hear the melody of their mum's lullaby when they sleep at night,

wishing to hear the melody of their father's encouragement when they believe they can't win the fight,

wishing to hear the melody when the birds chirp happily as dawn left and the morning sun comes out

Some people wish they can afford a magical thing called love

to be kissed every morning by his own pa and ma

to be held tightly in an affectionate embrace

to be guaranteed he will never be left alone

Some people wish they'll be given another chance to grow up once again

Some people wish they can survive another suffocating day

Some people have to sell everything just to get a bunch of grains

Some people dont have any other choice but to obey

Some dont have a shelter to protect themselves from the sun and rain

Some barely have food to be consumed every other day

Some always live in constant pain

Some waited years to have that one lucky day

And I , a person who is extremely lucky , who is loved by so many people , who has a lot of friends , who goes to school to learn , who gets to eat what I like when I want to , who has a cosy home to live in , who doesnt always have money burning a whole in my pocket but simply enough to buy anything that I like every single month , who has a family which I'd never trade for anything else in the world, who even has the chance to fangirl whenever I feel like it ,

I wish I lived in London

I wish my family is super rich so that we can go to any place in the world without being worried about money

I wish I am Zayn Malik's girlfriend

I wish my bestfriends live near my house

I wish I am tall

I wish food can appear out of nowhere

I wish I can get an A without studying

I wish I don't have to take exams

I wish school starts at 10 AM

I wish I can wear anything to school

I wish I have a driving license and a car

I wish I have a 5 storey house with a built in library

I wish I have thick money in my wallet everyday

I wish I can go to Korea and buy as many K-Pop items as I want

I wish I can be bestfriends with One Direction

I freakin wish I am in London

I wish I have a British accent

I wish I can speak in more than 5 languanges

I wish I can be a cool person

I wish Song Joong Ki would come back to Running Man

I wish Big Bang dont have concert a week before SPM

I wish I have a theatre in my own house

I wish I can buy 20 scarfs a week

I wish I can go to London

Oh young lady , you take so many little things for granted .

6 Cekap , 2007

'Alamak alamak alamak alamak alamaaaak' aku menggelabah secara begitu extreme sekali dua kali . ( masa tu zaman innocent, tak reti cakap damn :p )

'Kau kenapa Dania, Dafi keluar AF ke hahahaha dah lama aku tunggu bila dia nak keluar' tanya kawan meja sebelah .

'Weh weh weh weh brochure untuk KT ( Kajian Tempatan , omg you allz Kajian Tempatan omg nerd ) kena hantar hari ni ennnn ? Alamak alamak alamak aku tak siap penghargaan lagi tsk weh weh weh penghargaan, kejap lagi Cikgu Nur Seha masuk habis ah' aku menggelabah secara begitu extreme lagi.

'Kau ni harap je penulisan 90 tapi nak tulis penghargaan pun hampeh. Tapi semnanya (sebenarnya) aku tak siap lagi brochure tu, aku baru siap pasal satu pukat je , kena buat minimum 2 pukat lain-lain ennn. So, aku lagi teruk daripada kau ah' kata kawan meja sebelah .

'Thanks weh' aku yang still menggelabah campur bengang sikit melemparkan pandangan ke arah yang menenangkan sikit sebab member wa tu tak membantu langsung .

'Hahaha lek ah . Meh ah aku tulis penghargaan kau tu adoi anak manja sorang ni' kata beliau macam aku ni anak dia ...

'HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE maseeeh , nanti aku beli chocolate:B ' kata aku yang tersengih sengih sambil tengok beliau tulis penghargaan .

'Tulis nama aku sekali dalam penghargaan ni' kata kawan meja sebelah lepas dah siap buatkan penghargaan untuk aku .

I miss you bestfriend .

I miss you SK Batu 9 .

Awkwardness all around .

This fella here with his phone call , that fella over there with his 'likeable behaviour(?)'.. fuu . What happened to the ever so hardcore brotherhood , brothers ?

I shall call tonight as the 'Akward-ful Night ' .

And I legit cried when Joong Ki left Running Man .

친구로, 친구로 지내야 한다는 이유로

목까지 차올랐던 그 고백을 참아야했어

Chinguro , chinguro jinaeya handaneun eeyuroh

Mokgaji chaohllatduhn geu gobaekeul chamahya haetsuh

Hasta La Vista

I am a dreamer, and when I wake,

You can't break my spirit it's my dreams you take.

And as you move on, remember me,

Remember us and all we used to be

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile

I've watched you sleeping for a while

I'd spend a lifetime with you

I know your fears and you know mine

We've had our doubts but now we're fine

And I love you , I swear that's true,

I cannot live without you

Goodbye my lover,

Goodbye my friend ,

You have been the one .

You have been the one for me .

-Goodbye My Lover , James Blunt-

Thanks for the friendship . Thanks for all those years of having each other to count on . Thanks for the memories . I just dont think our friendship is as .. easy as.. just not as pure .. just not the way it used to be. Of course I am the one to blame . You know that I'm sorry right . I am sorry more than I could ever tell . I don't want to .. like .. keep in touch with you any longer .. coz .. I am a useless friend and to tell you the truth , nobody needs a friend like me , especially you . You're such a very , very , very good friend I couldnt bear to hurt you any longer . I just don't want you to hate me more than you might already have . They say , time heals almost anything right ? I hope you'll get better , I'll get better and our friendship will get better in time . I'll just go with the flow . Urm , actually , more like , I will go with your flow . So , hastala vista .

Here's a song fer ya . Its called ''Goodbye'' by Air Supply .

I know it should have been your picture up there ,

but that would make it too obvious right .

Shut up , I'm trying to look happy here , hehe .

Goodbye , my lifetime friend .

Hey . Its Saturday . My Physics class ended on 2.30 PM . When I arrived home , I was determined to get my homeworks done. And guess who fell into deep slumber for 4 solid hours ? Hah . Thats right . Me .

Was scrolling through my older blog entries and I just realized that , I've been writing in English a lot compared to in Bahasa . And sadly , I'm telling you that .. You add 1 mark to my English paper and I would have gotten an A+ for my English , add 1 mark to my Bahasa Melayu paper and I would have gotten a C+ for my Bahasa Melayu . Orang Melayu dapat C Bahasa Melayu . Tolonglah facepalm muka setiap saat daripada sekarang , tolong lah Dania , tolong . Like , how can you get a C for BM ?! Y BM , Y U DO THIS TO ME . So , I think , the conclusion is .. WEH WRITE IN MALAY MORE FREQUENT LAH WEHHH .

Of being a hijabi and a hijabi and a hijabi

Assalamualaikum , olllaaaa :D Some people might have known that I've started to wear hijab for .. well not for quite a long time but yeah , few days maybe . I just want to share the story of me getting the hidayah to start wearing hijab and .. yeah . OMG Aisya and Alya are sitting right in front of me so its damn awkward to write a new entry while they're casually scrolling people's Instagram .. Lol I already asked them to leave me alone I freakin need to be alone to write a nice entry but well , this is Alya's house so yknow i cant simply ask her to get out Troololololololol .


So here's how the story goes . I performed my Isyak after waking up from a long nap . It was around 3.00 AM if I'm not mistaken . No one was awake except for me . I took my wudhu' and got ready to perform my Isyak . As usual , I took my telekung and my favourite red sejadah from the rack . It is the only sejadah that I love to use and I've been using it since I was in standard 5 . The story behind this favouritism is .. the sejadah was my Daddy's . Hes been using the sejadah for such a long time . After his death , I kept that sejadah and used it as my own . I never let people use that sejadah usually .. Hahaha . I dont know why but , to think that Daddy had been praying on the sejadah for years in his life and to think that daddy taught me how to pray when I was 5 years old on that very particular sejadah , makes me feel very .. 'protective' about it .


So I performed my Isyak , accompanied by the peacefulness of the night . After solat , my heart was at such peace I even wished that time would freeze and that I can live in that moment forever . I prayed and prayed and prayed to Allah that all of my parents sins would be forgiven , that they would be placed in His beautiful Jannah , that their journey in akhirat would be easy , that they will always be protected and loved by Allah . Mummy , Ayah , Daddy , all of them . I prayed that I will always be given the chance to repay my parents , to look after them just like they've always looked after me after all of these years , to love them unconditionally for the rest of their lives, to make them happy to watch me growing into a successful person , .

And everything seems to be happening all at the same time . I remembered a tazkirah we had long ago in school when ustazah told us this ; ' Selangkah lagi kaki ayah masuk ke dalam syurga , tapi terhalang disebabkan anak-anak perempuan tak pakai tudung' . I remembered posts I've read everywhere about women who didnt cover thair aurat and the azab they'll receive , dunia and akhirat . I remembered about Ayah who always tried to give his best for us , for me . I remembered Ayah scolding me in such fatherly and loving way whenever I did something wrong . I remembered walking into bookstores and everytime we got out , Ayah bought me at least one new book and said ' As long as it does not distract you from studying' . I remembered Ayah being so understanding about me not wanting to go into the KRK class in 2009 coz I was too afraid to get out of my new safe zone with the Fasihians . I remembered Ayah comforting me in the emergency ward when I got admitted because of my super freaking high fever , I cried like a baby because of the pain , and the fear of getting a shot , he was there besides me holding my hand as if he'd never ever let it go and told me that everything is gonna be okay and he'll never leave me .   I remembered Ayah clapping his hands loudly with such a proud look on his face as my name is being called a straight A's student , the look in his eyes as he watched me holding the result slip . Will I ever be able to do such terrible things to him , putting him straight to Al-Nar after all of the things he did for me ?


I remembered Daddy taking me to a stroll every evening on the park . On the way back , I'd fall asleep on the motorcycle every single time and Daddy had to pick me up inside the house . I remembered when Daddy stoked my cheek every morning to wake up for school , and he got to pick me up to the toilet or else I won't wake up . He'll wash my face and leave me in the toilet to get ready . I remembered when Daddy gave me a set of giant alphabet cards on my 5th birthday , I liked the gift so much I even brought them to bed . I remembered that proud look on Daddy's face as my name is being called 9 times in a row on Majlis Kecemerlangan Pelajar 2004 . Well , that was the last time he ever made it to the annual Majlis kecemerlangan anyways , he didnt make it the next year , he was taken away from me because Allah loves him more . I remembered Daddy saying 'Pandai anak Daddy' everytime I received any award from school for being the best student and stuffs . I remembered him sending me off to school every morning with such sleepy looks on his face . I rememberd him teaching me a doa everytime we reached the school gate ; ' Ya Allah , jadikanlah aku pelajar yang cemerlang dan insan yang berguna' . A doa I still practice until today . I remembered the moment I got the news that he got involved in an accident . I remembered watching him being pulled to the emergency room with blood on every part of his body . I remembered the last time he called my name , the last time he said 'Ata' with such despair and pain in his eyes in the emergency ward . I remembered how he fell into 'deep sleep' for two weeks and how I cried everyday because of him . I remebered the last time I saw him before he took his final breath . And , I remembered the red sejadah I was using . Will I ever be able to do such terrible things to him , putting him straight to Al-Nar after all of the things he did for me ?


Thats pretty much it . I love my dads , and I cant bear to do such terrible things to them .

GOSH-ITS-6/6/2012-OH-GOSH-ITS-2AM-OH-GOSH

 6/6/2012 , 2:20 AM , In my beautiful pink room :B


  Alya , I would have attached your picture with this new entry but the internet is so freaking slow even my non-existent turtle pet can work faster than this super duper modern hi-tech thingy oh gosh . So , we'll see if I can attach a picture or two of you after this if my eyes arent too sleepy to wait for the pictures to be uploaded laah kot , hee :B 


    Tanggal 6 Jun 1995 , lahirlah seorang perwira negara loooooooooooooool say whuuuut . Its the 6th of June dude , Happy 17th Birthday ! Imagine me being there with a freaking huge giant birthday cake and nowwww on the count of three , blow the candles okay ! 1 , 2 , 3 . HAPPPY BIRTHDAAAAAY . I seriously didnt forget about your birthday , but you know me . I lost track of time and dates easily . So yknow , I've been fasting all day long and went to tuition blablabla and whatnot , I was pretty tired to be honest . I fell asleep around 10 or 11 PM . In my sleep , I remembered about something important and I told my body 'you fool , wake up now ! WAKE UPPP ! You NEED to wake up! ' . So , I woke up . Yknow what the important thing is ? No , not your birthday , but I didnt perform my Isyak yet  HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA . 




    So I woke up and performed my Isyak all right ~ . I decided to spend some quality time with my laptop coz I wanna uninstall The Sims 3 from my laptop coz I don't wanna waste my time anymore . The moment my laptop is turned on , the screen showed 2:00 AM , 6/6/2012 and my dry lips ( perlu ke mention LOL ) whispered DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMNN  for 10 solid minutes . Can you imagine that ? Someone saying damn for 10 minutes without stopping ? Hahahaha . I was that disappointed with myself okay , tsk . I would have slapped my face for my .. 'frequently-losing-track-of-time' behaviour but I couldnt stand destroying such a cute face ... *vomits* . 


    And I logged on into Facebook and wrote an essay on your wall . Oh well , that essay is nothing compared to what I'm writing right now . Its 3 in the morning I tell ya and I'm still writing in front of the laptop like a professional novelist who's trying to finish his 15679423th novel . Please be proud of what I'm doing or else I'm going to throw a bowl of hot cantonese soup at your face . The eggs are good for your skin yknow . Then I stalked your Twitter and again macam 'DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMN YANG TAK RAPAT PUN DAH WISH BIRTHDAY ALYA DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMN' and I created a song entitled 'ON 5th OF JUNE NEXT YEAR YOU CANT SLEEP AT ALL WAIT TILL ITS 12 AM BEFORE GOING TO BED OR YOURE GONNA HAVE TO EAT VEGETABLES '( vegetables are scary alright). Wanna see the lyrics to this song ? Ah , I'll just keep em to myself , even the title is embarrassing enough . 


    So bro , 17 huh ? How does it feel ? You feel them creases started to show up on ya forehead yet ? Muahahahaha . I hope you did realize that I am still 16 so please , you have to show a good example coz yknow , I'm still 16 , spell it with me , S-I-X-T-E-E-N . Unlike you , who is 17 , spell it with me , S-E-V-E-N-T-E-E-N . Major hikhook hikhook bahahahaha . *PLEASE FEEL OLD PLEASE FEEL OLD* . I just want you to know that you can be anything you want , just don't lose faith and keep your determination going strong aite ? You wanna be a dentist , you can be it . You wanna be a criminal , you can be it . You wanna be an elephant ? You can be it .  Trust in yourself o o o o o kay ? Just like how I trusted Zayn Malik to propose me one day . Dont you dare go laughing at me , I have a dream ! And thats to be Mrs Malik . LOL unlikely to happen .


   I know I am in no place to tell you all that , but I really don't care since its your birthday . People make wishes for you , so these are my wishes : 1)May you always be a good servant to Allah almighty. 2)May you always be a good daughter both to your Mama and Papa. 3)May you always be a good sister to your Abang, Kakak and Adeeb! 4)Be like the sun ! I hope you'll always be a good friend that always radiates sunshine-goodness to all her friends with vitamin D and stuffs Haha :D I mean , its Vitamin D right ? Kalau salah sah-sah Bio kena pergi tuition LOL . 5) May Allah gives you continuous strength for you to never stop trying and never give up in everything that you do . Believe you can and you're halfway there . 


   I'm talking all these talks coz yknow , we're about to sit the scary hairy SPM . And after that , we'll take different paths . We'll face the REAL WORLD ( highlighted in grey to implicate that it is a DARK word) . I don't know how it sounds to you but for me , the REAL WORLD ( again , the colour grey is used once more to .. yknow .. same case as above ) sounds crazy . And of course , scary . So sister , thanks for the memories and ohooooi we still got a few months before school ends . Lets live our school lives to the fullest shall we ? :) *I'm getting emotional* . A few more months and we'll be done with school . When did I turn this old :'( Oh wait ! You're OLDER OLDER OLDER OLDER OLDERR than me :p




   Again , Happy 17th Birthday Alya . Thanks for being there all this while my good friend . May the odds be ever in your favor  .  Be a good kid and grow up into one beautiful , strong rose okay ? Shoot them useless people who brings you down with your thorns and make them bleed to death . And about the pictures I told you about earlier ... omg its 4:15 in the morning right now . I'll give it a try . Give me 5 seconds . 5 . 4 . 3 . 2 . 1 . Oh no the internet is still being a loser . So maybe you could open all the folders in your laptop and watch all your vain pictures alone without anyone else watching okay ? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA . Joke . Here's a picture omagadddd omagad HAHAHAHAHAHAHA WHAT CHU DOIN MAAAAN .

                              
                                    

I'm a birthday girl I can be anything I wanna be ,
you niggas aint got nothing on me .

So long birthday girl xx
Yours sincerely , Dania Natashya binti Hassan
4:30  freaking AM in the morning .
I deserve a freaking award , jussayin .




Make sure we meet up in London one fine day , lad . 

Of being a random seal

Assalamualaikum ?*coughs* Salam sejahtera *sneezes* Salam 1 Malaysia *covers face with a Harry Potter book* . Ha Ha . E'oooooo everyone . E'oooooo is hello btw . Achooooo . Well , this blog is kinda dusty now . Awh come on , you've heard it before , or maybe READ is the perfect word . ''Its been so long now , havent been updating this blog since forever . It is so dusty , cobwebs everywhere ACHOOOOOO'' . Duh .Why would it ever get dusty ? You never clean it anyways , do you even have to ? LOL . Why am I so annoying .

I am currently waiting for the notes from the emails to finish downloading . The wi-fi in my house is so freakin slow right now . 8 PDF documents are taking about 2 or 3 hours to be downloaded .. I know . Extremely annoying right . Your whole life is a joke , wi-fi . I freaking need to print those freaking notes and freaking read it and freaking get the homeworks inside the notes done or else Mr. Aru is gonna freaking slayer me in front of my freaking tuition mates .

So I thought , ' Well, hey ! You've got a freaking blog right ?! Why not update it like right now ? Its not like you've got anything else to do right now even if you've got a mountain of homeworks and revisions to be done ! But who cares right , you don't anyway . Oh you do but for the next 1 hour you will just close your mind from studying and enjoy yourself and pretend that you just dont care ! Entertain us Dania ! Forget about your homeworks just for now ! ' . And how did I respond to that ? ' Yeah , sure ' and of course , I gave a shot at writing a new entry and here I am , talking crap because I'm just a cool kid like that.

So , I gotta say I am currently living in a hectic life right now . Like , everything has to be done at the same time .. know what I mean ? Revisions revisions revisions and on top of that , homeworks homeworks homeworks . Pressure pressure pressure . Tuition tuition tuition . One Direction One Direction One Direction . LOL . I really really can't believe that I've got only another plus minus 7 months as a student .. to be sitting in the classroom with my fellow classmates , to annoy my fellow schoolmates .. Oh gosh . And of course , leaving my family . Nooooooooooooooo :'(

I don't want to be seperated from them :'( I am famous for my anak-manja-gila-khinzir-punya-manja status among my family . Yes yes . Even if I could make a glass of hot chocolate by myself , I would go to my mum and beg her to make one for me and I would hug her while she's making the hot chocolate for me LOLOLOLOL . I know , I am 17 , I know that . Duh . But still , I am so manja I cant even help myself . Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa I dont wanna go tu college :'( I just said college because it sounded so much cooler than university . Hahaha LOL at my life .

Sekian wabilahitaufik HEY TAUFIK ! THATS MY FATHER'S NAME ! walhidayah , assalamualaikum warahmatullahiwabarakatuh .

FOREVER OFFENDED . Forever hating on people yang kerja dekat Twitter indirect orang tak habis habis . I am not that mean to actually tell you to go die , but , mate , sort your life out . You , my friend , is following my Twitter , by the username @beenzayned . beenZAYNed . Notice the name ZAYN there ? OBVIOUSLY ITS ABOUT ZAYN MALIK RIGHT ? COULDNT BE TALKING ABOUT ANY OTHER ZAYN COULD I ? ANUAR ZAIN FOR INSTANCE ? HE'S NOT EVEN A ZAYN , HE'S A ZAIN ! SERIOUSLY ! AND IN WHAT BAND IS ZAYN MALIK IN ? ONE DIRECTION ISNT IT ? AND NOW YOURE COMPLAINING ABOUT ME TWEETING ABOUT ONE DIRECTION ALL THE TIME . SO , MAY I ASK , ON THE VERY FIRST PLACE , WHY THE HELL DID YOU FOLLOW MY TWITTER ACCOUNT ? WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY .

Hoi lepas tu sesedap rasa lah pulak nak indirect 'Directioners are getting on my nerves , no offend' ALREADY OFFENDED . ' Kerja nak tweet artist : I love you , please follow me , xoxo . Takde life ke ?' I DO HAVE A LIFE , AND THE LAST TIME I CHECKED , IT IS FAR GREATER THAN YOURS . 'Directioners are so annoying' WEHHHH WHY FOLLOW US ON THE VERY FIRST PLACE ? Terang-terang bapak gajah doh username aku beenZAYNed . ZAYN DOH . ZAYN . Habis kau expect aku tweet pasal apa ? Review pasal latest handphones dekat market ? Haaa ? ergh .